Fine,
let’s do this right.
We can never be certain of anything.
If we were, there’d be no point to faith.

It’s one of the hardest decisions to make:
To decide that someone isn’t right for you.
I keep vacillating back and forth.
Today i conclude that i should stick to my decision.

Sometimes when i ramble things come out, or God speaks to me.
I don’t really understand what’s going on in my heart.
It’s like separation anxiety.
I’m finding it extremely difficult to deal with.
Not even sure what’s causing it.
It’s like so many emotions are just running in circles within me.
Feelings that have gone and come back stronger.
I don’t [...]

It’s been so difficult trying to understand what You want.
Whether I am doing things because I want to avoid pain,
Or if You really told me that I should do something.
Whether I have to permanently say goodbye, or temporarily.
I feel like the insides of me are all contorted, disfigured
From trying to make something of this whole [...]

What a Friend we have in Jesus, all our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilege to carry everything to God in prayer!
O what peace we often forfeit, O what needless pain we bear,
All because we do not carry everything to God in prayer.
Have we trials and temptations? Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be [...]

Why don’t i care…
about anything.
I don’t want to see anyone.
I don’t want to talk to anyone.
I don’t want to go anywhere.
I just don’t care.
Leave me alone, world.
You may not see me for a while.
…something hurts.
not sure why.
not sure what.
don’t care.
leave me alone.

So many things run through my head, it’s a miracles that I can even sleep at night.
At the moment I cannot explain the feeling that is in me.
It’s almost like my heart aches.
Earlier I was really scared and nervous, jumping at any loud sound near me.
Then everything went away.
It was like God knew exactly what [...]

swoon |swoōn|verb [ intrans. ]
faint from extreme emotion.
be emotionally affected by someone or something that one admires; become ecstatic.
How awesome it would be…to just swoon at the lingering thought of God.
…because He’s so awesome, His presence engulfs us?
…because we ALWAYS reside in His presence?
For now, as You and I are becoming more acquainted, I guess that [...]

I feel so liberated.
Just knowing.
Now what, God?

You know when you ask God for something, He usually honors it.
And then you sit and wonder: why God?
God: Hey you asked for it.
Me: GAHHHHH. *bangs head on table*